[my music: Armor For Sleep ~ Basement Ghost Singing]
Sitting here alone in the common room with 40 year old virgin blasting and everyone hiding in their own rooms, there are so many things running through my mind… Do I want to stay as an English Major? Switch to Journalism? Both? I don’t know… still up in the air about that. But honestly, what am I not up in the air about? …nothing. I am up in the air about everything as of right now. I don’t even know what I want to do in the next 10 minutes of my life. Def a sufferer of chronic indecision over here... I actually had a discussion with jess today about how the title of this blog should be “I don’t know…” instead of “It’s Hardly Love….” Whatever. I like it’s hardly love… but very few people actually understand it. It’s not actually about love, but more like life in general. Life is something that no one is ever sure of, and love is just another thing that very few people are ever sure of. The “It” is supposed to be life, and “love” is every human emotion and thought. Together, Life is hardly whatever we categorize it as… and that is the long and short of it (hahaha… 40 year old virgin reference-jess). I guess it’s not so strange that I’m all up in the air about everything after all… cuz honestly who is? you? didn’t think so. Another thing that I’m terribly torn over: relationships. Lately I’ve been really wanting a relationship because I’ve just about had it with being alone, but it really wouldn't be a let down if i didn't wind up with the person that I want to be with right now. Naturally it would be AWESOME if i did wind up with him, but i'm ok for now. In other news, next week is going to blow big time. The 14th and the 16th are going to be shit days for me :( oh well. The single girls here are planning on spending the day together, so I'm down with that. I love my girls like crazy. I started thinking about it yesterday and it kinda made me sad. I was sitting here watching Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and it made me think that I really cannot picture my life after college without these girls. We have our fights and bitchiness that we throw around like it's our job, but in the end, it's all about the smiles and good times we had. Maybe it's all of the nights spent up late because one of us can't stop thinking about a guy... or maybe the lunch dates between classes with each other that we wouldn't miss for the world... or maybe it's the perpetual teasing and joking around about crushes... or maybe it's the crazy dance parties that last all night long... either way... i love these girls and wouldn't trade them for the world. They've had my back whenever I needed them... and I will forever have theirs. I'm gonna be really lonely after graduation without my lovelies!!!!!!
for now... i am going to enjoy ever last second that I have with my QU loves!
Ah, and the postcards gonna read
"Fuck yeah we can live like this...
We can live like this"
But if you left it up to me
Everyday would be
A holiday from real
We'd waste our weeks
Beneath the sun
We'd fry our brains
And write it's so much fun out here
And when it's all over I'll come back for another year...
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