[my music: 311 ~ Beyond the Gray Sky]
I love my friends. While at home, I was sitting around with my famiy when we got a delivery of a dozen white roses. They were addressed to me, and I was completely baffled by who could have sent flowers... i opened the card, and it was from the absolutly wonderful girls of Troup 120. That made me feel so good inside. These girls were amazing to me before, but now I am more sure than ever before that these girls are ones that I want to keep around for the rest of my life. When I arrived, the lovelies that were in the suite came out and greeted me... well Stini, Jess, Em, and Michelle all came out with arms wide open and smiles on their faces. I always felt close with them, but the fact that they showed this kind of support for me at this point in my life, means more to me than they could ever know. When Court got home, she was also with arms wide open and a smile... same with Cass when she got home later. The roses were the sweetest gesture, and it felt so nice to come back and hug each one of them.
I am trying to feel better about things. Nothing will bring Gina and Titi back, and nothing will stop this pain; but I have amazing people that I live with and the boys next door and upstairs that will help me get through each day. That is all that I can do right now, try to make it through each individual day. I love these people like they have no idea and I will spend the rest of this year and the rest of my life showing everyone that means anything to me how much i care. There are some people in life though that either don't want or don't need the love of certain people. Some people want to be rude to me, nasty to me, well they can go on with their issue-ridden lives because I am not wasting my energy on trying to get those people to be nice. I will love those who earned my love, those others can leave me alone because I am done trying to be your friend. not worth it. not even for a second.
Give love. Forget bitterness.
I love my friends. While at home, I was sitting around with my famiy when we got a delivery of a dozen white roses. They were addressed to me, and I was completely baffled by who could have sent flowers... i opened the card, and it was from the absolutly wonderful girls of Troup 120. That made me feel so good inside. These girls were amazing to me before, but now I am more sure than ever before that these girls are ones that I want to keep around for the rest of my life. When I arrived, the lovelies that were in the suite came out and greeted me... well Stini, Jess, Em, and Michelle all came out with arms wide open and smiles on their faces. I always felt close with them, but the fact that they showed this kind of support for me at this point in my life, means more to me than they could ever know. When Court got home, she was also with arms wide open and a smile... same with Cass when she got home later. The roses were the sweetest gesture, and it felt so nice to come back and hug each one of them.
I am trying to feel better about things. Nothing will bring Gina and Titi back, and nothing will stop this pain; but I have amazing people that I live with and the boys next door and upstairs that will help me get through each day. That is all that I can do right now, try to make it through each individual day. I love these people like they have no idea and I will spend the rest of this year and the rest of my life showing everyone that means anything to me how much i care. There are some people in life though that either don't want or don't need the love of certain people. Some people want to be rude to me, nasty to me, well they can go on with their issue-ridden lives because I am not wasting my energy on trying to get those people to be nice. I will love those who earned my love, those others can leave me alone because I am done trying to be your friend. not worth it. not even for a second.
Give love. Forget bitterness.
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