I'm a Wishful Thinker With the Worst Intentions

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New York, United States
I'm a student, a sister, a daughter, a mentor, a friend, a lover, an enemy and your partner in crime. I love life, live it to the fullest, and am generally as satisfied as one insatiable girl can be.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Time can't heal everything...

[my music: Bette Midler ~ One True Friend]

This one is for you Ryan...
14 years is a long time. We have shared so much... too much to ever forget. All those years in Little Tor... Mr. Rutter's class is where we met. He called you Cookie Monster, and for some reason I always associated the Monster Mash song with you. Tara had a crush on you and hated that I was so close with you... we had a playdate just about every other day. There was nothing quite like playing basketball, baseball, "volleyball" or any other game we could come up with on your basketball court on the side of your house, or air hockey in the den, or sonic the hedgehog in your basement. Whenever you would attack me or we would be wrestling over something, remember how boomer always attacked you and never me. Remember sitting on the stairs playing fetch with him. I loved boomer. You probably don't remember this, but we had that joke with you making this hand-gesture where you were kinda doing a wave with your pointer finger and used to say "larggy loogy" in a funny voice. i don't remember how it started or what it meant, but that was so funny to me. Your dad also started a joke that stayed with us. Remember the "Fire Hydrant"? Prob not... but I'll just give you a 1 word hint... Hallie. I remember being so upset when we "graduated" from elementary school cuz i was convinced that middle school was not going to be the same for us. It wasn't, but you still were my favorite. I still remember how fascinated by your house I was when you moved over to Lisa Lane. I called your house the donut house. That was the coolest house i had ever seen, but the fact that one wall of your bedroom was entirely glass kinda scared me. that's where you guys got Bailey. I still remember playing with your laser pointer for hours with that dog chasing it all over the place. He was the cutest furball just about EVER! Do you remember when you asked me to the Valentine's Day Dance at Street School in 5th grade? I was so scared, and nervous. You were my first date ever! You showed up with a box of chocolates & a teddy bear that was holding a balloon that said "I love you". I still have the bear at home. I'll never forget the day that you left new city. I lost a huge part of my life that day. And I never fully got it back. I miss you Ryry... you'll always be special to me, and I love you dearly.


You left me with the one wound that time can never heal. Boys may come and go, but you were never just a boy to me.

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