Really cute, yet completely unconventional

[my music: Head Automatica ~ Egyptian Musk]

We still have our Valentine's Day themed door decorations up. We're lazy. Our palm tree has become the defining point in our suite, in our sophomore year. We're hawaiian. There are black lights tacked into our walls. We're crazy. There are dust bunnies living under our futons. We're real. There are dozens of pictures of us, documenting the school year's parties, randomness & visits during break. We're in love.

I am feeling so random right now. I know that I should be doing work, but I am too scatter-brained right now. During lunch, Jess & Dany pointed out the fact that I am a picky person. Is that really a bad thing though? I refuse to eat certain things. yes, that is true. I dont like the texture of oatmeal, jello or slim jims. I don't like the taste of chocolate covered pretzels or chocolate and peanut butter together. I can't eat seafood. I like to think that I'm adventurous and willing to try things at least once. I thought that I wouldn't like seaweed salads, but I actually do enjoy them a great deal. So HA! A lot of people would prob never expect me to like something like that, but I do. I am really fickle though. I could like something one second and can't get enough of it, and then the next I can live without it and act like it never was there and that I was addicted to it at all. I've never really been attached to any one thing for too long in my life. I never had that one blanket that i grew up with that i couldn't live without, I never had that stuffed animal. Each of my sisters did. Marisa had her little apple rattle thing, Andrea had foo-foo, and Krissy had her bunny & the blankey. I never had anything. I think that says something about me. I am a fickle fickle person that holds on to things only for a short amount of time, and I suck had keeping things with me forever. I lost my best friend, and prob won't get him back. But crushes even I suck had staying crushed on a guy for an extended amount of time. I can live without MOST guys... there are a select few that i really really want in my life years from now. And I'm selfish. I expect to move on from guys, but them never moving on from me. I need to change that. Another thing that I'm going to change is the way that I look. I'm going to redefine my self by summer, and hopefully look and feel completely different and so much better. Sounds like a plan, and I'm sticking to it.

I have the best friends any girl could ever ask for. And they make me happy, but I need to make myself happy...