[my music: Wherever I May Roam ~ Metallica]
On this day when one should give thanks, I am sitting here at the kitchen table alone, while family tragedies are being discussed over sugary cakes and pies. My mind is wandering as though on a mission to find something but i am completely unaware as to what it is. My tongue is on fire with things to say. Or maybe it's just MJ's salsa. The philosophical rantings have gotten the better of me lately. I don't think I can handle neither the painfully optimistic nor the painfully pessimistic views of the world that I am being bombarded with. Am I a negative person? I find that i might be mildly cynical these days. But at the same time, i remain naively hopeful for the world and the heart of man despite the pain that world and men have shown me especially in the last year. Expectations, murder, losing touch, losing heart, losing faith, losing love, while gaining myself have completely changed my perspective of this holiday that the country is celebrating today. i don't know anymore........ I look at so many different things and it hurts. But i remain completely thankful for the family that I still have, my mom, dad, missy, ang, krissy, and all of my cousins, aunts & uncles. And I seriously do not know where I would be without some of my best friends at the Q: jess, stini, em, court, tara & cass, patrick, langley, the london girls, and so many others. The Abercrombie kids!! My RoCo loves: zoila, jeremy, roberto, goldie and once again so many others. And last but certainly not least my kitty spanky! Life would not be the same with all of these people <3>
On this day when one should give thanks, I am sitting here at the kitchen table alone, while family tragedies are being discussed over sugary cakes and pies. My mind is wandering as though on a mission to find something but i am completely unaware as to what it is. My tongue is on fire with things to say. Or maybe it's just MJ's salsa. The philosophical rantings have gotten the better of me lately. I don't think I can handle neither the painfully optimistic nor the painfully pessimistic views of the world that I am being bombarded with. Am I a negative person? I find that i might be mildly cynical these days. But at the same time, i remain naively hopeful for the world and the heart of man despite the pain that world and men have shown me especially in the last year. Expectations, murder, losing touch, losing heart, losing faith, losing love, while gaining myself have completely changed my perspective of this holiday that the country is celebrating today. i don't know anymore........ I look at so many different things and it hurts. But i remain completely thankful for the family that I still have, my mom, dad, missy, ang, krissy, and all of my cousins, aunts & uncles. And I seriously do not know where I would be without some of my best friends at the Q: jess, stini, em, court, tara & cass, patrick, langley, the london girls, and so many others. The Abercrombie kids!! My RoCo loves: zoila, jeremy, roberto, goldie and once again so many others. And last but certainly not least my kitty spanky! Life would not be the same with all of these people <3>
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